End of Year Reflection

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So I end 2008 eating chocolate for breakfast, spending the morning playing on the computer, and putting off my quiet time until noon. Does not augur well. Lots of fodder for New Year's resolutions here, but I probably won't make any. My dreams for the new year are always pretty much the same: to see Him more clearly, to love Him more dearly, and to follow Him more nearly, day by day.

I see little progress from year to year. Maybe it's there but just invisible to the naked eye. I hope so. But it is good to stop now and then and give the Lord a chance to lead me into more of what He wants so I will do that for a moment now. I suspect He wants to do more than I can imagine. My heart longs for Him. I want to reach out for that "more."

So if I were to pick a keyword for my goals for the coming year it would be TRUST. I want to consistently, joyfully, confidently trust Him with things I can see and those I can't. To trust that He remains unchanging and faithful, that His love endures forever, that I am His forever. I want to trust Him for blessings I can't even imagine, to step out into the unknown courageously, to fling myself into His arms the way a trusting child would reach for a good Father.

That probably involves putting away the chocolate and opening my Bible every day before I turn on my computer. For starters. I think I'll try that.

Comments

Laila said…
Ginny, l love your honesty! It is wonderfully refreshing. Your recurrent New Year's resolution to "see Him more clearly, to love Him more dearly, and to follow him more nearly, day by day" - is that a quote from the musical "Godspell"??? Or did they borrow it as a reference from some other source?
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